Been too long!

I have several posts in the works that I'm pretty stoked about.....

BUT

(and you knew that was coming, eh?)  life has thrown a curve ball my way again...

I have mentioned previously that much of my inspiration and desire for change comes from my mom's experience with metastatic breast cancer, most especially from the radical surgery she endured in January which left her without most of her sternum.  In the almost five months since then, she has slowly recovered her strength.   We were looking forward to a full recovery and placed much faith in the doctor's hope that he'd bought her at least a year.  

Yesterday we learned the cancer returned, and there is now nothing that can be done.  She may endure some radiation to slow the growth of the tumors that now reside behind the miniscule section of sternum left which connects to her collarbones.  But now the clock ticks (as it really does for all of us, but we're not aware of it most of the time) and I realize once again the precious nature of each day, each conversation, each moment.   I will continue to live my life in the present tense, so thankful I've had a lot of practice these last months as I enter this rather scary season of prolonged goodbye.....not running away from my emotion or anyone else's, but embracing each messy, sacred moment while I still have my mama.  I will take hold of joy with gusto, practice tenderness with myself and others when the dark moments come, and be true to my T1 nature without apology.  Because that's how I roll.  It's also how my T1 mama rolls. :)

I will continue to honor my mom by working on my inner and outer self.  My journey of learning who I am has many times been propelled by her encouragement and example.  I have no intention of stopping now....